21st April 2011

I'm posting a lot more now! (Y) i don't know what i'm doing here since my fingers are hurting like mad now cos i just played on the guitar... haha considering the different emotional state of people around me i realised how stupid marks actually are. the number of As shouldn't be the decisive factor of going into Jc/poly. What if you're a weaker student? Your choices would be limited alr cos you can't do as well as your counterparts! People should go to schools that they want to go, at least they know that they have made the decision to go there, and they will have to live with that choice (good or bad consequences). Going to a school that you have to go, just cos you can't go anywhere else, i don't believe that that is the correct mindset someone should have when deciding their future school.

Anyway, serious matters aside.. i can finally play a bar chord! ahh~ so proud of myself man. haha it kinda helps that almost everyone around me plays guitar =)) i think quite a few of them are self taught too. And they can play like full songs Oooo... i haven't begun to even properly remember all the notes on the fretboard yet. Haha but my chords playing is quite okay alr. Found a super fun song to play: Hip to my heart by Band Perry. Its a fast paced, lively and cheeky song. haha And the strumming isn't restricted to a fixed sequence too, unlike most of the songs i know. I am trying to tell myself that i don't want an acoustic guitar. Lol But i do have to admit, the sound makes me jealous =/ classical guitar can't really produce such a nice sound. Oh well, i can only hope that, since i started with classical (which is said to be harder to play) i can switch to acoustic with... ease? XD

Choir has been... tiring. And on wednesday, i saw in someone, a reflection of myself. When i too was picked on by someone with authority. I'm not sure if i did help her in any way, but i hope she knows that the rest of the section feels for her, and we understand that she is trying her best for the section, for the choir. Perhaps what made me attempt to grab her attention and to encourage her, even a tiny little bit, was the feeling of empathy for her; i remember the 'seemingly not personal attack' - purposely you drawing you out in front of the whole choir. Purposely saying you are wrong for everyone to hear. I remember the drop in morale, the sudden irrational (or is it rational?) impulse to hate, and hate, and hate.

I'll continue to work hard in choir... and keep trying, no matter how many mistakes with make, how many scoldings we get. because we are dedicated - we chose this, I chose this, and i WILL carry it through.

Being reunited with friends after a month on Speech day, it was truly a great day =) Just thinking back makes me miss them so much! My classmates are really very fun-loving, so i'm glad i have them by my side for 2 years. The smaller class sizes and everything really makes us more bonded than usual. Ohh i got my collegiates today!! So happy~ they're like super expensive thou XD hahah