2nd June 2011

Its already the middle of 2011 =/ and i remember how i was during this time last year, mugging (at least trying to, i think) and hoping for the O levels to be over. Today, I am bored.. okay fine i'm lying. I am dead tired. So many things have been running through my head over the past few days and studies are.. not really my priority, yet. haha

Insecurities, puppy love issues, thoughts about the current state of things, thoughts about the future. Its been overwhelming. Somehow, when i made the transition from school to holidays (from AEWF to the start of the holidays), from always being around people to just me and papers, out of the blue.. it became a little lonely. It doesn't help that my past insecurities are haunting me again. It occurred to me to be more appreciative of these periods of time when i'm alone, to reflect and think. But i guess too much of it isn't good for me either. And when you have too much to think about... you just get overwhelmed. Should i be satisfied with the way things are? Why did i suddenly want to consider to do something related to music? Do i have a right to be disappointed? So many questions, but the more i think, the more muddled i get, the harder it is to find answers. But if i don't think about them, they're like thorns in my flesh, constantly there to bother me.