25th July 2011

68 days to promos. Why am i NOT worried? sighs haha i didn't really do well for terms.. not very good, not very bad either. All of them are in the top range thou.. Excpet that i'm really starting to worry abt my Geog and GP. All those lessons where everyone was just arguing and i was stoning ( was i? there wasn't anything going through my mind, so many be i was) has made me feel extremely inadequate. It doesn't help that many of my friends are good at arguing in an essay almost without trying. Maybe i should consider consultations.

Today was a fun day. haha Rachel was sighing (happily) repeatedly, hence Si-an and i were teasing her relentlessly during recess. Haha but its rare to see her so happy. It makes me feel happy, whether its for her or due to the lifted atmosphere i don't know, but it was fun. Haha And there's Clarissa's want-to-catch-don't-want-to-catch expression when Wei Jie threw his jacket at her. She attacked him afterwards, which threw me into a laughing fit. Haha I'm beginning to fit into choir too. I'm glad... i found companions in the the most unexpected of friends. But hey i'm not complaining if it makes me feel a little more like i belong. And spending all the morning assemblies together.. i think my relationship with my fellow choir members is progressing ^^

I recently fell in love with frisbee. Its a super addictive sport which i am starting to grasp, and i can see myself improving with practice, unlike other sports (Basketball being a good example of this). Yeah... since frisbee involves going out into the sun/field to play, i expect myself getting a little bit more tan in the next few months XD The fun is just offset by the muscle aches and bruises experienced in the following days.. i'm still sporting some of them now even after thursday. Haha But is really fun =D And i can get to know more people too. So if i have time to spare, why not? Haha Which kinda means that i need to be more efficient when doing work. Which means no more slacking.... okay goodbye! (lol)

10th July 2011

I'm finally posting... after one month. Haha this blog's pretty dead anyway. Maybe someone will be too free, and they'll check out my fb profile and click the link to this blog. Anyway who cares, the blog is mostly for myself anyway. To satisfy my rare desires to be heard, perhaps by anyone at all.

Truth be told, recently i've been wanting to be heard. I hear myself sing but somehow it wasn't the free voice that i'd had 1 or two years ago. It's brightness is now being overshadowed by my utter lack of confidence. To the extent that i'm even beginning to wonder about the quality of my voice. Perhaps its not so ideal for choral singing after all. I can't seem to sing properly. Everyone tells me, you need taller vowels. But i was trying so hard >:( And i'm scared. I don't know how to get taller vowels.. no matter how i alter my voice it just doesn't fit. One time i sing like this, they tell us that's good. Then i sing the same way again some other day and they say it isn't tall enough. I'm so confused. The more i learn about singing the more confused i seem to get...

I miss it.

I miss the confidence that usually comes with my singing.