10th July 2011

I'm finally posting... after one month. Haha this blog's pretty dead anyway. Maybe someone will be too free, and they'll check out my fb profile and click the link to this blog. Anyway who cares, the blog is mostly for myself anyway. To satisfy my rare desires to be heard, perhaps by anyone at all.

Truth be told, recently i've been wanting to be heard. I hear myself sing but somehow it wasn't the free voice that i'd had 1 or two years ago. It's brightness is now being overshadowed by my utter lack of confidence. To the extent that i'm even beginning to wonder about the quality of my voice. Perhaps its not so ideal for choral singing after all. I can't seem to sing properly. Everyone tells me, you need taller vowels. But i was trying so hard >:( And i'm scared. I don't know how to get taller vowels.. no matter how i alter my voice it just doesn't fit. One time i sing like this, they tell us that's good. Then i sing the same way again some other day and they say it isn't tall enough. I'm so confused. The more i learn about singing the more confused i seem to get...

I miss it.

I miss the confidence that usually comes with my singing.