23rd August 2011

I'm not supposed to be doing this... but i can't help it, i've got a lot of things to say, but in sufficient time to write them all in my diary. I have like 3 tests this week plus 3 sessions of choir (i'm not complaining.. will mention more abt this later..). I think if i weren't so.. idiotic this week, i probably won't be wishing for this week to end quickly. Today was a day of confusing feelings and fighting to keep myself happy. I mean of course there were things that made me happy, but I think because quite a lot of bad stuff happened, so they ended up 'outshining' the good things.

I'm so idiotic these few days. Kept forgetting to hand in things... to bring things, to do thing etc. last friday, forgot to hand in the class's tutorial. And from there things just went down hill... sigh i won't elaborate >.< It'll only make me even more depressed than i am now. anyway yeah, so today, i did a lot of foolish things.. choir ended around 7. But oh, Evangeline now i know the feeling of being in a bonded choir! We were walking to Buona Vista MRT station and then we started singing Ding Dong, OMG it was so fun~ hahaha Weijie keeps telling me to hit the high a/b -.- anyway, yeah i've really started to love the choir. All the great people i've yet to discover~ haha and loving how we get to sing together, that's a nice feeling =) teacher's day is coming, i hope that there'll be a miracle, and we can sing the songs to bless everyone in the hall and LT =D

The one thing that makes me smile today.. is probably a person's kind act of saying 'hi' to me. I thought he wouldn't remember me.. and life is pretty coincidental huh? Unless you don't believe in coincidences and say that it was fate.. Hahaha Then that would mean that life is playing tricks on me.. XD okay i gtg, Gp test tmr. haven't even read half of what i'm supposed to read...

12th August 2011

I was supposed to post this yesterday.. but i got depressed studying so much geog (which i doubt i'm going to do well in) and i didn't have the time to write. Also when i'm in a hurry i can't really do thing right... when i hurry myself, i'll only get the opposite effect - doing working super slowly, slower than normal. haha Yeah, i'm really different from my friends. How we get along, is something that i'm in awe of everyday... yeap so i'll treasure these friendships.

Ever felt some strong feelings for something, so strong that you really don't want to stop doing whatever you want to do/ stop seeing that person etc? I've been feeling like that so much recently, its baffling and the disappointment catches me by surprise. Wanting to do something so much, and suddenly finding out that you couldn't, knowing that it was just bad luck but being unable to do anything about it.. it was like a mental slap to me. Even writing about this, i could still feel the impact of those words. I think back and wonder, should i have done this differently...?

I realised i write about things in a really abstract way.. In fact i'm actually writing about two different things.. but linking them together cos they're actually... kinda related. Oh wells... but there's nothing i can do about this now. Only time can tell how things will change~ But i'll do my best. This week hasn't been a good week for me, and the recent realisation didn't help end the week well, so yeah. Here i am emoing away.. not really sure whether to look forward to tmr or not. Oh wells, I guess this is what happens when you make a sudden abrupt decision. But i'm gonna get through it. Notice i left out the 'try'? =D