12th August 2011

I was supposed to post this yesterday.. but i got depressed studying so much geog (which i doubt i'm going to do well in) and i didn't have the time to write. Also when i'm in a hurry i can't really do thing right... when i hurry myself, i'll only get the opposite effect - doing working super slowly, slower than normal. haha Yeah, i'm really different from my friends. How we get along, is something that i'm in awe of everyday... yeap so i'll treasure these friendships.

Ever felt some strong feelings for something, so strong that you really don't want to stop doing whatever you want to do/ stop seeing that person etc? I've been feeling like that so much recently, its baffling and the disappointment catches me by surprise. Wanting to do something so much, and suddenly finding out that you couldn't, knowing that it was just bad luck but being unable to do anything about it.. it was like a mental slap to me. Even writing about this, i could still feel the impact of those words. I think back and wonder, should i have done this differently...?

I realised i write about things in a really abstract way.. In fact i'm actually writing about two different things.. but linking them together cos they're actually... kinda related. Oh wells... but there's nothing i can do about this now. Only time can tell how things will change~ But i'll do my best. This week hasn't been a good week for me, and the recent realisation didn't help end the week well, so yeah. Here i am emoing away.. not really sure whether to look forward to tmr or not. Oh wells, I guess this is what happens when you make a sudden abrupt decision. But i'm gonna get through it. Notice i left out the 'try'? =D