23rd September 2011

Happy Birthday Evangeline~ I wished you like 3 times alr! hahah

I had a wonderful time this week. Even if i didn't start out well. Its times like this that I fight for in life =) For the first time in a long time, I feel wholly happy! I went out to play in the rain yesterday... (shhh! No one is supposed to know about this, i'll get scolded for sure) for an entire 1h20min But boyy it was fun! haha You're not even sweating, its cooling, bordering on cold actually =/ and the synthetic grass felt pretty good on my feet. Haha, spontaneous actions really can add a whole range of new experiences for us. And we ended up taking jumpshot pictures. Lol i realised that my ankle tan-line is the worse, because i'm originally so fair.. Oops..

I finished my new short story~ I'm super proud of it. Its about frisbee... somehow i managed to link it to.. someone. Hence: ARGHHHHHHH! >:( Sigh anyway i wrote the story to pen down some of my confusion into words anyway. But i'm not going to send this to the publication.. no way in hell. Too obvious alr. HAHA

15th September 2011

4 days into term 4 and i'm already feeling like this.. aiyo.. how arh =( Frankly i don't understand what's going on either. The lack of communication just sucks and once again i'm struck by the hesitancy to reach out. Its amazing how things can change within a few months/weeks, how life can turn your original happiness into a feeling of dismay and disappointment. I'm not depressed.. just not sure how to respond to the odd situation at hand. I'm wary.. I really don't know what's going on. Sigh.. I guess i was asking for it, letting myself step into such a different kind of friendship and environment. I'll make mistakes.. I just hope that I won't hurt anyone in the process =/

I'm being an idiot really.. haha I know things won't work out but i end up wishing for them anyway. Perhaps i should just satisfy myself with the fact that we can throw together during PE and he's actually nice when we're throwing. Extending an invitation and giving me advice etc =X haha my backhand's really improved, now its time to work on my forehand ^^ Anyway so many issues are taking my emotions on a rollercoaster ride... time to get back to work

2nd September 2011

Not gonna post this on fb, twitter doesn't work and my itouch is dead, So here goes: if you're going to call me to entertain yourself, i would appreciate if you didn't.