15th September 2011

4 days into term 4 and i'm already feeling like this.. aiyo.. how arh =( Frankly i don't understand what's going on either. The lack of communication just sucks and once again i'm struck by the hesitancy to reach out. Its amazing how things can change within a few months/weeks, how life can turn your original happiness into a feeling of dismay and disappointment. I'm not depressed.. just not sure how to respond to the odd situation at hand. I'm wary.. I really don't know what's going on. Sigh.. I guess i was asking for it, letting myself step into such a different kind of friendship and environment. I'll make mistakes.. I just hope that I won't hurt anyone in the process =/

I'm being an idiot really.. haha I know things won't work out but i end up wishing for them anyway. Perhaps i should just satisfy myself with the fact that we can throw together during PE and he's actually nice when we're throwing. Extending an invitation and giving me advice etc =X haha my backhand's really improved, now its time to work on my forehand ^^ Anyway so many issues are taking my emotions on a rollercoaster ride... time to get back to work