11th October 2011

I just updated my blogskin! Yay! Problem is: i don't know how to put in a chatbox. Sighs Why i'm so bo liao as to go edit my blog? Well its after promos! And i have nothing to do. I have gone out at all.. when i used to go out all the time with my friends after most major exams. I don't know. AC is wonderful, yes i love the sense of bonding there. But at the same time my selfish heart isn't satisfied. Close friends, i have yet to find. Sure i have friends who tease me and laugh with me.. Maybe its because everyone is such an extrovert, everyone enjoys being in such big groups of people. Contrary to that, being with big groups of people isn't my idea of fun, in fact it only made me draw myself further into my heart. I know i have to get used to it; that's the hard truth of life, but i can't bring myself to do it when i'm already feeling down. From prior experiences, going out with big groups of people, i know, will only serve to make me feel worse. I guess i'll have to slowly grow into it.. Sigh and i was so looking forward to a game tmr. And i'm too shy to ask him if we can go throw together T.T

I swear.... we have 3 opportunities every day to interact: in class and during our 2 CCAs. And yet we don't even talk much. Fail la ziyu, fail -.-

Anyways I shall bury myself in books then. Bleh