27th February 2011

Heyyy~ I been posting more lately. I dunno. Haha i'm quite contented with life. I wonder why some people seem so depressed lately. Everyone has their own definition of 'happiness' - because we all want something from life. It changes all the time, changing according to our preferences, our 'greed' for certain things... Perhaps their life just doesn't hit the standard they want.

There was one decision, i'd made quite long ago, a decision that i still regret even now. Why did i choose to go to one side of the fence? Why did i throw away the other, labelling it as 'someone i wasn't as close to'? Why couldn't i have just sat on the fence - simple, because it was easier to stand on solid ground compared to sitting on such a narrow fence. At first i thought she'd already forgotten about it, to a certain extent, that its no longer hurting her. But how wrong i was. And now there's this certain distance that's there. Truth be told, i know, it'll be hard to close the distance. I don't blame her if she wants that it to remain that way. Well, Evan, if you're reading this, i want to apologise for leaving you out for all those time. (I think, you know what i'm talking abt.) I truly regretted it, for taking a side and leaving the other. It was mean of me =/ Thank you for supporting me throughout all those cold wars. After a while, i'd sworn never never to make such a mistake ever again.

Life recently has been eventful, albiet a little unlucky. 1) my form teacher took my choir file by accident and i had to run from one end of the school to to the other a back, in between lessons just to get it back from her. 2) it rained really heavily during cross country and my shoes got wet... i got back to Clementi only to have the stupid Joo Koon(sp) train delay for at least 10 min. Hehe but i was happy that day~ 3) broke a pipette during my first Chem prac =.= and spilled (diluted) alkali on my pencilbox. If i were in a bad mood, i would be extremely furious. But i was happy, so yeah, they merely made life 'eventful', not 'pissing off'. hahah Choir's been fun but tiring. I feel so free to be singing again =) and i can reach high A again! lalala. The only prob is that i have no one to talk to in choir, apart from my senior -.- And while we're singing, also cannot talk. Hmph =(

I really miss my Crescent friends =( wish i could see them, not talk to them on Msn or the phone. Oh btw, my MSN is screwed - cannot open for some damn reason, so that just gives me less time to talk to them! *angry*